Everybody learns...

Just thought I would post a blog so that you all know that Im not a stupid mother! Everybody learns how to take care of their babies and not every baby is the same. After about 30 minutes to 1 hour of letting Landon cry in his crib last night I gave in and gave up the battle. He is NOT ready for his crib right now and just wants his mommy to sleep with. No I am not laying in bed with him and am not going to crush him...I am sleeping on the couch and holding him in such a way that I wake up when he moves. I prop him on his boppy so that he is getting air, but can also feel my torso against him. Last night Landon slept better than he ever has. He slept from about 2 am til around 10 am waking up for about 1 hour to be changed and get fed.
I love my son's smile, his laugh, and the peaceful way he sleeps. I can read him pretty well already, which is pretty good considering he is not even 2 weeks old. He doesnt cry when he needs to be changed so Daniel and I just have to listen and be mindful of predicting if he is dirty. Our sweet love is still healing from his surgery and his umbilical cord is still awaiting to fall off.
So if you are thinking I am a bad mother...I'm not. I am taking very good care of my baby. If I were not he would not be such a peaceful baby. Everybody learns how to take care of their baby differently.